Triggered Memories

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A few minutes ago, I finished watching this one movie. The movie was divided into a few movies(?) or so. I sound so dumb, but yeah. The last part of the movie was out, watched it, disappointed, though, I shed tears during the ending.

There is this one movie that I have been wanting to watch since I was 15. It was a spin off from a book which I’ve known since the young age of 13, but I only began reading it during my last year of middle school. Cici/Ardella, my darling BFF read it first, then she told me it was a fine, fine book. You freak! That thing is not something a 15 years old should read! Oh well, who cares.

The both of us become obsessed with it! We’ve probably read the book a gazillion times. We practically memorized the whole series. You have no idea how excited we were when we found out that a movie was in the making. From the casting to the first shooting and to the private life of the actors. We knew it all. We were screwed, in a way.

The first movie was released in 2015. We were 17, Cici and I went to different schools, as usual, but we were like monkeys! Jumping up and down, enthusiastic as the premiere date was getting closer. Nevertheless, heaven brought its peace upon us. To prevent two crazy 17 y/o girls to watch such movie, it was banned in Malaysia. I know you can probably guess the movie by now. It’s my favourite book, uoolllsss!

Bla bla bla

As usual, I’m not really fond of the movie premiere. So there I was, sitting, laying down watching the last part of the trilogy, the cut one, thus resulting in a very disappointed Allya. It was fun, I was laughing, literally reciting each line in the movie (memorized the whole book), but during the ending, I cried.

My favourite song was playing (from the movie) and they played back those clips from the first movie until the last. You see, I have a very terrible, troublesome, annoyingly annoying case of saying goodbyes. I hate goodbyes. I’m bad with it. Especially when it gave me lots of memories.

As they playback the memories-clip thingy, my own memories started to move, it geared up. Yes, memories are machines xD

I remember those days where I read that book during those long but packed morning assemblies. I remember the time I told my classmates on how good those books actually are, if you look at it from a different perspective. How they made fun of me, how I made fun of them back, how we insulted each other’s fetishes.

Talking about how college life will be? How working life will be? How marriage life will be?

Other than the last part, all of us have now experienced it. From that same-cycle-everyday student to a never-the-same-event-in-a-row kind of person; my classmates and I have grown. We’ve experienced things we never knew existed. We meet new people, there’s also a new environment, new tasks. Nevertheless, by the end of the day, your school friends are just there for you; no matter how hard you tried to remove them.

As you’re reading this, you must think, ‘This girl is crazy, you can’t have that much connection with your school friends.’ But hey, we’re just close, alhamdulillah.

Look at it this way, you’ve been seeing that person for a decade, every single day, yes, sometimes even during the weekends. You talk to them, you laugh with them, you fight with them, you experience grief and sorrow, but also pure bliss, happiness. One day, bam, they’re just gone and you’re out of your comfort zone. Unless you’re just an oddball, you’ll miss that weird, tingly sensation of being with those forced-to-be-friends-but-ended-up-being-our-good-friends-since-we-see-each-other-everyday friends. What?…

I love college, I really do, but there is just something about being with your school friends. The last time you met them was a year ago, maybe, but there is no tension, no awkwardness. It feels comfortable, calming, stress-free; unless there’s a drama going, which will not be cute anymore as we’re 20 y/o this year.

Whenever I feel stressed out about life, I reached out to them. They’re my comfort zone, as creepy as it sounds, I’m so going to stick with you forever, guys! I will leach on like a parasite, remember Science Form 3? Yeah, I’m going to be that.

As this book and movie have been with me for quite sometimes; my friends have been with me for a long time. The memories I have, good and bad, they made me who I am today. You can’t just get rid of it and I don’t want to. My stories with them are a tale which I want to pass on to my children, possibly to my grandchildren as well. My whole life was filled with them, they play a huge part in my life, other than my family.

I don’t miss that everyday-school routine, but I do miss their laughs, their jokes, their sassiness, their dumbness, their everything. I’m holding back my tears as I’m typing this post.

This movie was supposed to be my happy pill, but why do I feel sad? Then I remembered, my schoolmates are my happy pills, this movie reminds me of them. A group of people whom I used meet every day without a doubt, but now, we can only see each other in the cyber world. After all, we are CYBERjaya’s graduates. *laughing at my own puns*

The movie may disappoint me, but the ending did its justice. It made me realize on how important memories can be. They’re my treasure, they made me grow, and they taught me love do extend beyond family members.

My schoolmates, I am blessed with such an amazing group of friends. I hope we can create our own legacy and help those who are in need. As everyone is special in a different kind of way, let’s create an empire!

Fighting! And I miss you guys, a lot! ❤





Early Marriage; yay or nay?

As I am a healthy almost-18 y/o girl, of course I have thoughts about marriage.

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For example, how will my wedding looks like?

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Indoor? Outdoor? Beach? Church? JK (Nauzubillah, istighfar Allya!)

Who will I marry?

Ooooh, I wanna marry these guys!!! ♥∪♥

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Dapat satu pun jadi lah xD

And the list goes on. Although I love the idea of getting married; but at this age is a no no for me. Why?


I wrote this post because I got myself into a fight (mouth only, mind you. I don’t beat women) with this one lady because she insisted on marrying off her daughter even though she’s still young; probably around my age. Her daughter pun layan je mak dia. Stupid.

Oh yeah, when I was living in Malaysia (I still am tho xD), getting married at a young age is like an everyday occurrence (I’m over writing this xD). I have friends who got married as young as 15 y/o. Crazy? I know, I was really shocked when I heard about it.

Like hallooooooo~ I’m here stressing about my school, exams and stuff yet you’re worrying about your family! That’s crazy man 0.0

So back to the topic. First, what is marriage? Heterosexual or not, marriage means having a legal bond with a certain someone. I’m not agreeing with this whole LGBT thingy but then again, it’s your choice (as long as you’re not a Muslim). Whether you love that person or not, once you say the ‘I do’ word then bam! He or she is yours. But what is a marriage without love?

Getting married means that you’ll have to see that person 24/7.

When you wake up, they’re there.

When you’re going to sleep, they’re next to you.

Basically, you’ll be stuck with that person; until Jannah, Insyallah.

So marrying someone who you don’t love is technically like living with some stranger in the same house. Not to mention that you have to do the deed (pervy Allya >///,\\\<)


“And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your hearts. Undoubtedly in these are signs for those who reflect.” [Holy Quran 30:21]

“And Allah has made for you your mates of your own nature, and made for you, out of them, sons and daughters and grandchildren, and provided for your sustenance of the best.” [Holy Quran 16:72]

Those verses of the Holy Quran clearly show that Islam considers marriage as one of the most virtuous and approved institutions. The Messenger of Allah swt. declared, “There is no monasticism in Islam.” He further ordained,

“O you young men! Whoever is able to marry should marry, for that will help him to lower his gaze and guard his modesty.” [Al-Bukhari]

Modesty was regarded as a great virtue by the Prophet. He said, “Modesty is part of faith.” [Al-Bukhari]

The importance of the institution or marriage receives its greatest emphasis from the following Hadith of the Prophet,

“Marriage is my Sunnah. Whosoever keeps away from it is not from me.”

With those Quranic injunctions and the guidance from the Prophet saw. in mind, we can see that in my religion; marriage is a good thing but if you’re still acting like a child, then please, just DON’T!

Yes, yes I know. People change. Though I doubt that you’ll change in a short amount of time.

For example; let’s just say that I was to get married this instant. I would object to it. Like literally object it.

Hello, I woke up when the sun is high.

You need to give me at least 20 minutes to find things in my room since they’re like the insides of a wrecked ship.

Cooking? I am a great cook but to cook every single day, no thank you.

Not to mention that I like to hang out and have fun a lot.

Memang tak lah nak jadi mak orang. Jaga diri pun tak pass, inikan nak jaga orang. Hmmmm… Memang tak lah -_-“

So the question is; is an early marriage a pros or a cons?

  • Great looks ✓
  • Great cook ✓
  • Love cleanness ✓
  • A loving and kind hearted wife ✓
  • Love children lots ✓

Well, if you have those kind of qualities a.k.a. a womanly woman, I mean a woman amongst women, then go ahead and get married. But if you’re still like me and the reason why you want to get married is just because, then don’t. You’ll regret it for life.

Why is it a con?

 There is a reason why we are studying until the age of 20-ish. It’s because until we reach that age, we are practically kids (with a huge body). People might argue that it’s ok to juggle between your marriage and studies. I know some people who can do it but not so much. My grandmother got married at an early age. While she didn’t really regret it when she was younger, she regrets it a lot these days a.k.a. when she is older. She said that before, when people her age are all hanging out with friends and all, she had to stayed in and took care of her little family. It was fun but when she’s older, she realizes that she didn’t miss those times because she didn’t live it through. You’ll literally lost your young adult life.

So friends, nak kawin awal ke? Think about your future, your children and your beloved as well. Okay 😉

Though if you still wanna get married then go ahead. This is just my personal opinion. Then again, Allah swt. have arrange everything for us. Who knows, maybe I’m the one who’s going to get married at a young age -_-” Ironic.


P.S. I’m not that bad of a woman. Do marry me xD

P.P.S. I just realize that this post was targeted towards women, tehee~~~ I’ll write one about my opinions on boys and early marriage. MAYBEEEE~~~