Reminiscing Old Times

Hi hi~

I know, I know. I promised that the next post will be about my sleep over with Pavi, but things are hectic and yeah. I’ll just write about it, next time.

So, I was scrolling down my old blog because I want to convert them to PDF; for the sake of memories. I cried, I laughed, I cringed, yes, mostly cringed.

OMG! I remember that day!

Gosh, the hell was I thinking?!

I can’t believe they did that?!

Whaaaat?!!!

Wuaaaaaa!!! I miss those dorks! TT^TT

Those are some of the scenarios. One thing for sure though, I was so immature back then. Especially when it comes to my love life. Pfftt.

Like I always said, I’m screwed when Allya-the-love-struck-idiot is back. The 24/7 tomato-red Allya, submissive Allya, I-can-not-see-him-without-blushing-even-though-he-is-1-km-away Allya, the ever-so-stuttering Allya, the my-self-esteem-is-all-over-the-floor Allya. Dear God, it is so not me!

My writings, don’t get me started about my grammar.

I SUCK! BIG TIME!

My grammar is way better now, comparing to before. The qualities of those posts are terrible as well. Not to mention those photos! UGLY was tattooed all over my forehead! I want to delete them all, but knowing that my school friends like to read it sometimes (and bloody cried); I’ll just keep it for old times’ sake.

Eeeergh, I’m still cringing. How did I manage to wake up at 4 a.m. to make some packed lunch for me, hoping that Syamiel will praise my cooking?! Stupid Allya! The present Allya will even skip her exam for some sleep! What is wrong with you, young lady?! You’ll forget him in a few years time, and ended up being best buddies (more like insulting buddy).

There are those stupid school dramas. Why Allya? Why?!

Hahahahaha xD

Nevertheless, it made me who I am today. My past may not be filled with rainbows and golds, but they’re a part of me. Something that I will not trade for anything in the world. I’m thankful for those who are still with me now, but those who left; you’re still in my mind.

Tata~

 

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Moody no more~

Soooooo… I was in a bad mood, since Monday. Or was it Tuesday. Eh… I forgot… Ouh yeah, I was absent on Tuesday and Wednesday due to my high fever.

Things happened here and there. At home, campus, brain, heart. Though this one particular thing pissed the hell out of me. Though, s’all good now~

I’m still mad and I am still going to write something about it, but for now, I’m just happy. And confused. Well, more like the later one.

The one thing that I’m really bad at (except for Maths; that one is my mutual enemy since birth) is L.O.V.E. I suck big time! Make it one-sided or two ways relationship. Pffffttt… Who am I to talk? All you do is one-sided gurl xD

Let’s prevent this from getting weirder. Gotta do my law assignment (thank you Syamiel for wishing me good luck for this! I need it! TT^TT) and study for tomorrow’s quiz~

Tata~ Adios~

Heroine Shikkaku~

Translated, its Disqualified Heroine or Rejected Heroine in English. I read the manga when I was younger. Well not really that young, I was 14/15 ish back then. It was a sweet manga, but I haven’t finish reading it because it took the translator a long time to translate it… Aaaaah… The pain of waiting for a translation, heck there’s a complete manga that I have been waiting since I was 10, but it’s English translations are still incomplete. True, I learnt Japanese before, but my kanji and katana are bad. Capital B.A.D.

Back to the story, so I just found out that they made a movie spin-off. IT WAS SO GOOD! Heck, it’s one of the best movie-based-from-manga spin-off I’ve ever watch! The actors and actresses were so into characters, the props, lightings! Aaaaaaaaaaah!!!

Though I don’t want to blabber about the movie’s qualities, I want to share about the plots.

Taken from Asianwiki,

’Hatori Matsuzaki is a female high school student. She has a crush on her childhood friend Rita Terasaka and believes he will eventually choose her as her heroine, but Rita Terasaka begins dating Miho Adachi. Meanwhile, the most popular male student, Kosuke Hiromitsu takes an interest in Hatori Matsuzaki.’

Basically, Hatori loves Rita and vice versa, but they’re too scared to confess their love. I gotta, admit, I prefer Hatori to be with Kosuke, but oh well~

When Rita got his first girlfriend, Miho Adachi, Hatori was thinking about 101 ways to get rid of her. Sounds cruel, but she’s an idiot, so yeah. Even from the very beginning, I never liked Adachi, acting all weak and innocent; the worst evil creature on earth! True, Hatori was mean in a stupid way at first, but she’s an angel at heart. Letting go of the boy that she likes, putting on a happy façade, feeling happy as long as Rita is happy.

The plot twist was during the bon odori, the firework festival.

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During the firework festival, I feel you Hatori.
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I. AM. GOING. TO. SAY. THAT. Pfttt.. Liar, you’ll pee in your pants before you say it, Allya.

Hatori confessed, both her and Rita kissed. It’s a krik krik situation, considering Rita was still dating Adachi, but hey, I won’t judge. They held hands throughout the whole night. It was fun, until Adachi the serpent ruins everything the next day.

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The evil b*tch! Acting all weak. Hellloooo! Can’t you be independent, so not worth my time.

Fortunately for Hatori, Kosuke came to the rescue, drenched in rain ❤ ❤ ❤ He helped her to climb out from that deep dug pit and give her all the loves she needs.

Bla bla bla, Rita stayed with Adachi while Hatori dated Kosuke. Again, it was a fun time, until their school trip. Finally, Adachi confessed her wrong doings to Rita and Hatori told Kosuke about where her heart really lies on.

Hatori went to meet Rita and vice versa, they met and voila~ They live happily ever after.

My summary sucks, but it left a deep impression in my heart.

If you know me, or have been reading my old blog, you’ll know that I like Syamiel for 7 years. Ooops, Allya have no shame now admitting to that because yeah, it’s all in the past~ I read the manga during the time where well, I don’t know. In conclusion, I don’t get the manga at first, like why the hell would you wanna do that Hatori?! I get the I-am-happy-as-long-as-he-is-happy part, but WHY ARE YOU NOT ACCEPTING KOSUKE? And WHY ARE YOU KISSING SOMEONE ELSE’S BOYFRIEND? For God sake, it was an alien concept for me.

Pffft… As I get older a.k.a. now, I kinda understand Hatori. She’s been in love with the guy for a decade and suddenly some random chick stole him from her. Like hallloooooo, she basically raised the guy. Now I understand how mothers around the world feel.

Why is she not leaning towards Kosuke in the beginning? Well, the heart wants what it wants. You can’t force yourself to love someone. If you’re lucky, it’ll end well, but if not… It’s going to be painful.

Personally, for me, the greatest form of love (love between lovers and not family) will be staying happy even when you were hurt. Okay that doesn’t make sense. What I’m trying to say here is that, one-sided love is the strongest type of love, especially if you love that someone one-sidedly for a long period of time. Listen to that Mielly, you should be proud that someone like me loved you like that before ;P

Loving someone unconditionally even when that someone doesn’t even know your existence. Being happy for his happiness. It saddens you, no, just like how a vampire is killed, seeing him smiling, loving another girl feels like someone just stab you in the chest with a stake. Ouh, dear God the pain is unbearable, but it’s okay because he is happy. Call it stupid, but hey, to all people out there who have been through a one-sided love, they will get me.

I promised myself to tell the next person who I will love openly, with full confidence, barge head on with your feelings. Meh, bullshit. It doesn’t work that way. I gave out a lot of love advices, but look at me, I learnt from mangas, animes and dramas. Haks. I may have all the confidence of the world, but when it comes to love, I suck, BIG TIME. From high-level-until-it-reached-the-sky-even-through-the-outer-space kind of confidence, when it comes to love, my confidence will be at the most inner part of the earth surface thingy.

True, I am not that average looking, but when I’m in love, I feel like I’m the ugliest girl ever lived. I can’t even look at the person who I like. Heck, I can’t even look at Syamiel before; I’ll ran off even when he’s 1km away. Though look at us now, staring contest is our favourite kind of contest because I will always win~

Forget blusher, my cheeks are always glowing red. Errgh! Why are you like that Allya?! Now it makes me cringe, whenever I remember the past me who were in love with Syamiel. Aduuuuh. Maluuu. Allya iz zo ztupidz.

Aaaaah… The good old days where love was in the air. Where love was not that complicated. My pure love. Ahaks. One more thing, Mielly dear, sorry that I kept mentioning your name. I mean, you’re the only one I have ever liked, so yeah… Bear with me, or find me a hot young billionaire for a chance 😉

To wrap things up, this movie taught me a lot about love. Even when Rita founds out that Adachi tricked him, he still thanked her. It shows that respect is a must-have quality in everyone. As for Adachi, she forgave Rita and also Hatori, when they kissed. Kosuke, striving and changing into a better person for the girl he loves, but keep on being better even after being dumped by her.

Lastly, our heroine, Hatori, stupid idiot for not confessing earlier. Padan muka you lose Rita for a while, your mistake. Though in the same time, great woman, loving someone whole-heartedly without getting anything in return except for heartache. Stupid, for kissing someone’s boyfriend, but bravely confessing her feelings. Going for what she wants, not caring about the world, Atta girl!

Rita’s words to Hatori when he finally confessed,

“Are you fine with that? I’m empty, you know, I’ve always hurt you, I am coward too.”

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! So sweeeeeeeeeet!!! Diabetes!!!!!! Kena potong kaki!!!!!!!!!!! ❤

Funny, romantic, idioticly stupid and reality. Heroine Shikkaku is worth the watch!

I guess that is all for my ‘review’ about the movie. Not really worth the read, but hey, I just love writing about my thoughts~

Tata~


P.S. If you realized it, I kept using the word ‘like’ and not ‘love’ when it comes to Syamiel. For me, love is something I can say to everyone I love. My family, friends, adorable cute things. But for ‘like’, it’s a heavy coated word. ‘Like’ means a great form of love towards someone-who-I want-to-be-with-for-the-rest-of-my-life kinda word. Currently, Mielly is the only receiver of the word, haks. YOU SHOULD BE PROUD SHEIKH MUHAMMAD SYAMIEL KHUZAIFAH. You were liked by me, Allya the Great! Hahahahahahaha xD He is soooo going to kill me if he reads my blog. Teheee~ Ingat aku kesah :p

P.P.S. Below are some of my fav lines~

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Every girl needs a Kosuke in her life! I wanna put the kabe-don scene, but I can’t because my wordpress is the normal plan TT^TT Google it!!! The kabe-don scene! I died! ❤ ❤ ❤
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When Hatori ‘gave up’ on Rita xD

The first photo is the perfect description of girls friendship. Boys, we do share every single small details that you probably notice; it doesn’t exist. Or do they? Because girls confused you a lot xD And the second photo is the type of friend I am. You hurt my friend? I’ll torture you, not to death, because you’ll feel no pain after death.

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Yezzzzzzzaaaaaaa!!! Each one of us is the main character in our own life! We should not try to be others because hey, everyone is different.